Saturday, August 25, 2012

The Dawn of Dilking

It's been a long time since I've posted on my blog. In fact, it's been over two months since I've even looked at this site. I just haven't had the right mindset to write anything. If you look closely at the overarching tone of the last few posts on the site, you could see that my life was slowly coming apart. In the past two months I've been dealing with that unraveling as well as trying to pull myself back together.

At the end of June, I lost my home. No, that's not right. I was put in the position of having to choose between having my own apartment or my own car. I chose the car. So, at the end of June, I left my home. No, I'm not homeless. Some friends allowed me to take over a spare bedroom. I discussed the pros/cons of that decision so I won't go over that mess again. I will say this: it's taken me a lot longer than I expected to get over the loss of my home. It seems that I take to being depressed like a fish to water. It's not that I enjoy being depressed, but that it's easy for me to live there.

I finished my training, and I'm back to looking for work. Unfortunately, my job search has to work with the corporate schedule, and budgets for new hires usually don't free up until the beginning of the financial quarter which is somewhere around the end of September. Between now & then, it's nothing but slim pickins. But I'm keeping myself entertained with the practice exams for my certifications. Once I get reliably good at passing it, I'll take my shot at passing it for real and getting my  Microsoft certs.

The long dark night in my mind is passing. The sun is crossing the horizon. The dawn has come.